I leaned, didn’t fall 

I hoped, isn’t desperate 

I spoke, never unheard 

Curlly,  that’s what you are! 



Something I was thinking today.

Everyday I have a choice. I can either decide to fight the good fight or I can decide not to and relax. I can either choose to go with the flow or I can decide to be intentional and check my motives and actively follow God which might mean that I’ll have to go against the flow a lot of times. I wake up in the morning. Instagram is made to be a dopamine addiction. (That dopamine addiction is caused because I value what others think of me. I want to know who wants to follow me, who likes me, who is interested in me.. All of that.. I value it and therefore it can be an addiction. Do I actually value God like that? Imagine I valued God so much.. If I gave a lot of importance to what He had to say to me. Imagine, seeing a Bible gave me as much curiosity as an Instagram notification. I can actually have a dopamine addiction to the Bible if I valued it more than the other things that I value. So that is upto me. I can feed what I want to feed. Whatever I feed will grow more.)
So anyway, everyday I have a choice. This one year of break. I can either decide to read God’s word and get motivated and inspired and stay focused, work hard, persevere. Or I can decide to wake up, check Instagram, watch some entertaining videos on YouTube, watch a movie, be on my phone, check Whatsapp Instagram or Facebook, have fun, hang out and get done with my day. My first option is hard. To practise and to be a disciple, to go out and make disciples, it is hard. I need to push myself. I need to deny myself. But that’s the cross I have to carry to follow Jesus. On the other hand, having fun all day and living for my own self is easy but empty. But I can get addicted to that emptiness and do the same empty things again and again. So it’s actually my choice. I can either carry my cross or decide to do other things. I know what I want to do in life and who I want to be. I can either be mediocre at it or I can work at it with all my heart as working for the Lord.